[ This is SO over. ;) ]

31 October 2011

Hahaha okay since this will be one LAST question regarding to X, here's the
story. ;)

Well here's a disclaimer.
What you're about to read are all generated from my brain and thoughts.
If you've got a problem with it, it's probably gonna be your problem because yeah like I said, this is MY thoughts and point of view and my side of the TRUTH. ;)
And I've got information to back me up anyway.

So let's get this started shall we? :D

Yes, I met X first.
Way before Edwin happened. :)
So the first time I met X was the day I had my 1st #newface2011 photo shoot.
It was still a question mark whether I'll be in the top 20 because that shoot determined it. :)
I recalled that it was a movie screening at Great World, Harry Potter was the movie.

Hmmmm, so like we got closer from then on.
He met me up more often than usual.
And then he brought me to the fortune teller, and we met up even more.

There was still the #newface2011 thingy going on and we had some interaction with some old folks though this charity event and all and it made me wonder how life was effing short and how my own grandmother was doing up in the heavens..
And how the last time I did something like this was during CNY with my family at a home near North side of Singapore.

Then I saw this poster tagged on Aloysius's wall and decided to take part in it.
And since X was meeting me everyday and had no school and nothing to do, he decided to tag along.

That's when Edwin finally came into the picture.
We went to a country club that X recommended that night and drank, talked and well, bonded.
That's also when I met Aloysius in flesh for the very first time.

So X got his Edwin's number and they became smoking ''buddies'' every time we go out.
He wasn't open-ly bisexual (or gay?) then.
At least Edwin didn't know until X decided to announce it during the stay at Sentosa with Freddie, Kimberly and Ian and of course Edwin, Aloysius and I were present as well.

Reason why it begin to fall apart was because X was putting so much effort in trying to keep up the relationship with Edwin, he neglected my relationship with himself.
He even made Edwin promise him to meet him everyday.
Like seriously?
He was always out with Edwin, and not that I mind, but it seems like he only had Edwin in mind.
Even Aloysius sensed it and it was getting obvious that X only wants a ''Car keys' meeting'' just so that he can meet Edwin.

So naturally, all the good stuffs was shared amongst themselves.
While I get the bad ones like X coming to me, complaining and whining to me how some people was badmouthing him on Twitter and tons of other stuffs.
Or like how he find some vloggers to be disgusting and all and even imitated them for us to see.
At first it was funny, but it just got plain annoying as time goes by.

Oh and there was a few situations where X himself confessed to me.
That he has feelings for Edwin.
I don't know if he was for real for the first time, because he was high.
But I recalled him telling me that he's someone who remembers whatever he said when he's high.
And he'll make sure he never gets too drunk to take care of himself.

So when the second time came around, I confirmed that he really do like Edwin, like alot.
He told me in my face like...

''Eh Jiaqi, I like Edwin eh... And he likes you eh... How ah?''

That was when I placed all the pieces together and completed the puzzle.
The next day, I asked him if he remembered what he said to me and he conveniently told me yes but refuse to admit that he confessed to me about his liking/ love for Edwin.

And in the process of all these outings and gatherings whatsoever, the amount came out to a shocking S$4k and more and X's mom was obviously pissed off.
I felt really sorry and guilty because I was one of the contributing factors to that amount.

So I told X that he should start working or something and he was like..

''Aiya, my mom also never ask me to pay her back.''

And I was really disappointed.
I knew that X's only 17, and boys maturation only happens after army and all...
But woah, I totally didn't expected that.
And if I wasn't wrong, that was the first argument over the phone.

Let's fast forward to the day where I had my Harajuku fashion show.
So X woke up late.
Probably at about 4pm?
And my walk was about 7pm.
So I told him to just meet Edwin in town as I could use some help me in taking photos using my camera so that I can blog about it and all.
But he was still at home or waiting even after the end of my fashion show.

Reason being?

''Cause Edwin also haven't wake up yet..''

Hahahaha, you can imagine my disappointment and anger.
I literally went *#&$(W*#&*W^&R*(W&(RW over that.
But Jiayi and Alton came so it wasn't that bad.
Then the duo decided to make the appearance after my filming with 特写 and dinner.

Well it was an unplanned meet up because I was so pissed I didn't even wanna look at them.
But Jiayi insisted anyway.
So what happened at the meeting was me stomping off the ground after trying to shout over what X has to say for himself.
It was so melodramatic I almost believed myself that what happened was taking out of a script for a drama or something, LOL.

Then I was just sitting infront of ION dozing off and then before I knew, I texted Jiayi who talked to both X and Edwin, and she got Chengxi to come and fetch the both of us home.

Then the Sentosa thing happened really last minute-ly.
It was Kimberly and Alton's performance at Esplanade and like I only decided to drop by at around 6pm-ish?
I was beating up myself for not letting X and Edwin a chance to speak for themselves and I was missing their presences already.

Which was why I gave X a big hug when I saw him.
And trust me when I said I almost wanted to cry in front of him after that hug.
But hey, big girls don't cry. ;)
So after a night of fun and whatnots at Sentosa, it all died down.

Next morning, I woke up first and Edwin too woke up not long after.
He went for a swim and I used the bathtub for a ''spa'' session.
After bathing, Edwin went into bathed and X woke up.
His first words to me was..

''Where's Edwin?''

Hahaha isn't it funny?
I swear, I wasn't the only one feeling the vibes too because Edwin asked me himself.
And so after all these, let's go forward to the flea Ian had that time at Scape shall we?

That was the day Edwin asked me out alone.
X was texting the both of us asking where were we and all.
I wasn't sure if I can tell him that I was going out with Edwin because Edwin told me that he told X that he's going out to eat with the family.
And so like, I just kept my answers as ''I don't know'' and ''I'll call you back later''.

And he got real pissed off when I tweeted that I was heading down to Scape.
Apparently because he tweeted ''well, if it's not for Twitter,I wouldn't know where my friends are at'', or something along that line.
I called him immediately and explained.
Part of the reason was because I really felt the pinch for his mom.

LIKEAHELLO, 4k isn't like 40cents.
That's S$4,000 my god.
I'd probably have to work and blog thrice as hard to earn that sum of money.
But he spent it while hanging out with us, over the span of a mere few days?
Another was obviously because Edwin was uncomfortable with X's vibes.

X had his taste of his own medicine and he should've see this coming anyway.
Re-tweeting and Tumblr-ing about stuffs like liking someone he can't have?
And things went downhill after that.
Edwin continued meeting me and X continue haunting him.

The day where X really did effed up big time was on the 19 of October.
We had a meeting at Old Town.
The whole time while I was talking, I can tell that X was just waiting for time to pass and waiting for me to say my piece.
There was no sign or remorse of how he mistreated me.

And by mistreatment, I meant it like...
''Oh so now my mom thinks you guys are hanging out with me because of money...''
''You are the one who 'they' hate, who 'they' bitched and warned me about...''

All I can say is that he's delusional.
Money, really?
I've got friends who owns private jets, big ass houses overseas and in Singapore and the sole reason why I'm not hanging out with them but with X is because?
I treated X as a true friend.

If I was someone who really loves money, X will honestly be overlooked.
Because it's not like he's some godly handsome prince in shining white tuxedo.
Moreover, the cards/ money he's spending don't belongs to him anyway.
They are all earned by his mom.
I know his mom treats him like the apple of her eyes, but really?
Insulting me with money that isn't his, just yet?
BIG WRONG MOVE right there.

Okay, interruption here.
Just a warning that I'm going to blog from a 1-to-1 perspective from here on.
Cause I know that you'll be reading this anyway. ;)

So I would like to say that...
I've really been a good friend, to you especially.
Up until today since I've know Alton, he hasn't made as much complaints and whines as you had, when we were only friends for this short amount of period.
And I'm friends with Alton for say, 3 years already?
And Alton's my best friend.
OH not to mention that you wanted to be MY best friend BEFORE Edwin came into the picture.

I know you were there when I needed help to garner likes and votes for #newface2011.
Am really thankful and grateful. ;')
Trust me when I say I did teared when I saw the video you made.
But it's the same theory when I said that I've tried my best to see the good in you.
When everyone around me tells me otherwise, I still stood strong by you.
However, it was you who made me stop seeing the light, you who showed me your true colours.
What came up in the end all went down to history because the negativity you had over me was overwhelming the positivity.

Insulting me was one, accusing me was another.
But the moment you showed my sister the attitude you gave her that day at Old Town?
That was the last straw.
I know that she's not in ''Car keys'', but do you have to point it out all that blatantly?
And every time you're with me and I'm going to meet her, you always have to give the ._. face?

SHE IS MY SISTER FOR GOD'S SAKE.
Even if I hate her and her actions sometimes, but we are still sisters.
She'll be someone whom my life can't live without, unlike you.
If worse comes to worse and I'm made to choose sides, I'd fly to hers without hesitation.
So I really don't appreciate the fact that you dissed her RIGHT IN MY FACE.
I almost wanted to send you a tight slap across the table, I swear to god.

And like that wasn't enough, you had to tap your fingers while listening.
With me being a Mass Communications student, I did learn a thing or two from social behaviour studies.
Your non-verbal actions actually spoke volume. ;)

So yeah, and that was the end of it until today.

''I don't know if she planned it but it was the night before and she said she was going and I just said okay and I tagged along.''

I could have resort to one of your manipulative tricks of dumping EVERYTHING to you, but I stood up for you even when we are not friends anymore.
And now this?
WTF is your problem really?

Is it because Edwin and I finally got the limelight for the day due to our change in relationship and you're like LL because the attention isn't on you?
And you say that I'm using Edwin for fame, I would've posted pictures and videos of us everyday.
OH WAIT, that's something you already did.
Mianhaeyo.

If I wanted fame and money, I would have left Singapore.
I would have gone to Hollywood/ Taiwan/ Korea.
Because honestly?
Fame and riches is something I don't mind having, but wouldn't DIE NOT HAVING IT.

And if you're wondering why I unfollowed you on Twitter, it's because I can't stand someone tweeting about where they are, what they are doing 24/7 just to fish for reactions and compliments.
I'm someone who loves attention too, but even that are a tad way too much for my liking.

Remember how you go on and on about me forgetting you when I'm famous even when I'm not?
Seriously, are you that insecure?
Just goes to show how much you think of me.

I'm done with this and this will definitely be the last of X you'll see in my life. ;)
Anyway, if you're interested in Edwin's side of the story, feel free to visit his brand new blog. ;)

You know I could have taken all the time I spent on this blog post to finish up my 1.5k assignment due tomorrow but instead spent the time to blog out this blog post with over 2.3k words.
See how much you meant (note: past tense) to me? ;)

xoxo